Okay, this my review won't be as long as previous ones, there weren't any hotel-airport adventures, but there was a show..a great and a very special show for me, which I will never forget!!!
So, the pre-story of my trip is that when I saw baltic countries' shows in a tourdates section, I immediately started to puzzle my head with the question how to combine at least 2 of them...And.. There was a great luck with Tallinn immediately - at 1st, I found the cheapest bus tickets there ever, and then I got a bonus on my work - 3 free nights in SPA hotel in Tallinn...yes it was a destiny - I would combine a small family vacation and a scorps show - just a perfect combination!
And, unfortunately, u know, due to "some" probs with spare time and money
, I left a thought of going to other baltic shows, and Helsinki, though of course I wanted to go there also with all my soul..
So..Tallinn's trip was planned long in advance, and it , so to say, completed the set of shows I was lucky to see this year. Yes, I saw 3 types of shows!! - An acoustic one - in Athens, then 3 shows with orchestra, and in Tallinn -a classic rock show! Yayyy!!!
We had 2 days of relaxation in our hotel in the city centre, in a combination with walking in the old part of the city, enjoying its medieval spirit and tasting the authentic food in the restaurants -yes I was enjoying this small vacation
. And even in the morning on a day of the show I was lying in a relax pool, and really thinking that I didn't want to get out of it and go outside - the weather was really awful on a show day... But I had to be in the 1st row -all or nothing - u know...
So, as I was there also with my FOS friend from St Peter's - we arrived to the venue doors at about 3 pm -and found out we were 1st ones.. Yes crazy russians
-so at 1st we checked the situation, and tried to find the right doors to stand...and, as there was nobody to ask, we thought logically that the doors under the sign "B sector" must be the right doors for us - we had tickets for B fan zone....
Some time later we saw 2 girls, who also was searching for he right door to stand at. I noticed them and came to them. They turned to be from spain. Yayy! So we checked again all the entrances and after asking several ppl got convinced that we were standing at the right doors. And again we had a very pleasant conversation, telling our scorps' stories, our show adventures, sharing why we love the guys. - and again it warmed up the atmosphere, and I didn't notice cold wind and rain, I was enjoying the conversation
. Later I saw Halenya coming to the door ( yay! It was a great pleasure to meet here again!), then finally I met in person with Petteri! So the time of waiting in such a company wasn't boring at all! We even managed to see a bit of soundcheck
. Thus, by the time the doors were opened, besides us there were only several ppl, but they had tickets to the dance floor, which was behind the fan zone.
Finally the doors were opened and I was the 1st one who entered inside.. At 1st I ran, but when i turned around I found out that there was nobody behind me...hmm.. so unusual...so I walked to the stage, and saw Bibi standing there and waiting for the beginning of the show. I greeted her and stood next to re. Right at the end of a catwalk. And I've to say, the layout of these "zones" was, I'd say, weird...2 fan zones were at both side of a catwalk( and I was at Matt's side), in front of the catwalk there was a sitting parterre ( what for on a rock show???
), and behind the parterre there was a dancefloor area...
So, before the show I thought that the best place for me to stand would be that place in the end of the catwalk - coz there I could see the guys from the closest position. And I got where I wanted
cool! Soon there appeared my new fos friend from Spain Mercedes, and Halenya - they, and Petteri, took the spots next to me. And as from my St Peter's friend - she was right in front of Matthias - yes, she's in the camp of his die-hard fans
The only one whom I was really missing there was Joanne( well, of course I was missing many of my fos friends, whom I would like to see next to me there, but Joanne was more then - ...coz just the day before my departing to Tallinn she told me she was coming, but.. When I was already in Tallinn, I received a message from her, that due to some personal probs she wouldn't come
)... Yes I was sad about it, and, more I was sorry for her, coz I knew how she felt cancelling everything in the last minute...
Well, it was about the time of the beginning of the show -the heating act - but the fan zone was almost empty...I really was surprised and even shocked a bit...and I really couldn't imagine that moment when boys would come out and would see the empty fan zone
...oh, no!!! "pls, ppl, come on!!! Come here" I thought!
And, thanks God, by the beginning of a scorps' show itself, the fan zone was, not to say full, but at least not so empty. Uff... I breathed out...
As for the heating act -as in the 99% cases nothing special at all...hehe, just a test before the show...so I stood it, and then that time of final preparations for the show...
And...finally I saw those screens and a standard welcoming speech "Ladies and gentlemen...." ( hehe, I even forgot a bit all of this after acoustic and 3 orchestra shows...)
And... Tadammm!!! The 1st riffs of SITT again blew me away!! That excitement, that indescribable feeling of the beginning of the show!! Yeah!!! again I raised my FOS scarf greeting all the guys!!!! And immediately I felt that energy coming from all of them...that effective appearance of James, Rudy, playing the 1st SITT riffs, seeing Matt, Klaus and Pawel coming out on stage caused goosebumps on my skin... Yeah! Again from the 1st moment I just flew away, filling with that energy of love and freedom... I felt that pure rock energy!! I saw that the guys were all in a great shape, and that they were enjoying the show!!!
Here Rudy is just running to the edge of a catwalk, full of energy, making his "firm" face - I raised my FOS scarf and he noticed me -wahoo!!! Then Matthias came to greet everyone on the catwalk - he was going along it, and making faces - I saw and felt he was in a great mood! The positive vibes were just pouring out of him.. Amazing!!! Suddenly he noticed me in the crowd...and hey.. Did it seem to me that he was a bit surprised and at the same happy to see me?
Wow! At least that was what I saw in his eyes and his face expression.. And...did he say "hi" to me???
- I looked at Mercedes - and she said kinda - wow! He greeted u!..oookay.. It didn't seem
...unbelievable...Hehe.. And seeing the wide warm smile at Matthias' face I realized that I must have such a crazy and surprised face expression also...so I greeted him also!! And it was fantastic!! Really!!! And, it seemed to me from the 1st minutes of the show, that Klaus also recognized me, and smiled to me - but I wasn't sure - doesn't matter actually, you know, that I go to their show, 1st of all to enjoy it - to feel that energy, to charge myself, and of course, I also like to have this kinda interaction with all the guys! It's always a part of the show for me!! But this time it was smth really special!!!
Finally Klaus is coming towards me along the catwalk... I look at him.. He looks at the ppl in the crow, trying to identify the familiar faces and, and, it seemed to me that he passed by me, and didn't recognize me, but just a moment later his eyes stopped at me.. Oh. My. God...That was a moment in a million years... If you only could see THAT LOOK... that expression of a surprise and happiness...you know such a look is usually when u suddenly meet a good friend, or a person, who is dear to you, in a random place...yeah he greeted me with his firm gestures..and to say I was shocked and happy is to say nothing
...of course I was a familiar fan for him , and for the other guys, but I really didn't expect such a warm and special greeting from them...and well..You may say that it was my rich fantasy, and that I took the desirable for the reality... well even if it is so - just my fantasy - it made me more than happy - and it's already great! After all, I will never know the truth, so I will think this way to keep this dream alive
As well as I caught a greeting gesture and crazy face from James, and even Pawel, was sending me much attention this time...hell yeah!!!
It's a really indescribable feeling when u happy to see the guys and u know that they all recognized u, and, moreover, they all r happy to see u too!!!!
So.. During all the songs i had this warm friends conversation of gestures and looks with all the guys - without words, but with so much sense...And I really can't find the proper words to describe all the feelings I had then.. A hurricane of feelings, during the whole show I was extremely high on the emotions.... Of course I was catching each moment of the show, enjoying this wonderful playing, this divine voice,trying to remember everything, just to keep those precious moments in my heart...
Yes, the set list was "standard' - but hey, for me I didn't matter at all!! Yes I knew all the songs, all the lyrics by heart, and it was a pleasure to sing them all ( yep, even Coast to Coast
), again and again going deep into the sense of the lyrics, the spirit of the music...
I was singing along with Klaus , jumping, playing imaginary guitar, rocking out all the show long!!! Though it was a bit unusual to stand in such a "free" fan zone without any pushing.. But it was definitely great!!!!
And, again and again I was really pleased to catch those warm looks and gestures from all the guys each time they came close to me... And I thanked them for this attention from the bottom of my heart ... I really appreciated it...
One of the top moments for me was during Coast to Coast.. This song, without words but with a huge and deep meaning was always a special one for me, and from that moment this song will definitely be in a special place of my heart...Coz during it, when all the guys came to the edge of a catwalk, Klaus was right at my side, and he was looking at me from time to time, sending me winks, and then, when he showed his plec to me, as telling me that it would be mine.. Wow! ( hehe, I totally forgot about the plec, and before the show I thought - ok, though it's not important - but still it would be great to catch a drumstick, though, of course Klaus throws them to the catwalk rarely) so when I saw this and realized it...I really screamed of happiness - not coz of this plec, but coz of this gesture, of the moment itself... And.. In the end he kissed it, looked at me, smiled with the sweetest smile, and threw it right from hands to hands...and.. for the 1st time in my life I caught smth from Klaus hands!! I really, really can't describe what I felt then... The appreciation, the gratitude to this incredible man...so after I caught the plec, I also kissed it and put to my heart, showing him that I appreciate it, and that it's really important for me....Really top emotional moment!!!
Now this plec,( it's red - what I find really symbolical - as a part of Klaus' heart) is near that pic of Klaus from Athens, that i signed in St Peter's - you know, I'm not a hunter for pics and autographs.. But still I keep some stuff, that reminds me of some really important moments of my life, connected to these amazing ppl, that changed my life...
So yep, I got really much attention from all the guys, esp from Klaus... each time he was on a catwalk he looked at me and sent me smiles and lots of positive vibes... not just simple "flirting" looks, but with more sense...I really felt special that night...( and again. even if it's just my fantasy.. I don't care...) oh no.. I can't express my feelings to this incedible man...the love, the respect admiration and endless thankfulness...he is so unique...
But, despite being so high on the emotions,, I remembered that my mission " a call to a fos sister" was not completed. Yep, this time I saved Nada's Egyptian phone number in advance. And decided to call her on SMAA. So when the moment came, I dialled her, got convinced that she could hear me, and raised my hand with the phone, to closer to the stage to make the sound better.. And of course I was also enjoying this song, full of deep meaning and some magic...yes Klaus' vocal was esp great there!!
And here came another moment, that will be a intrigue, to which we will never know the truth...I was holding my hand with the phone close to the stage, and Matthias was the closest to me. And suddenly I saw that he was looking at my phone..hmm - I thought -why does he look? - I'm not shooting - I'm just calling my friend...Yes the screen on the phone was turned on, coz I constantly checked the connection - so I thought - " nothing interesting is there, only the name of whom I'm calling... The name.." THE NAME!!!! Here I realized that he could read the name - and it was written "NADA EGY" ( "egy" meaning egyptian not to mess it up with her lebanese number) - so Matthias knew Nada perfectly, and if he read it..wow! I looked at him and saw he was smiling so mysteriously...well, of course we will never know the truth.. The fact is that he understood that I was calling someone, but I will never know if he read WHOM I called...let's hope he did
One more moment was during TBIYTC - when Klaus, after singing " how can we grow old, when the soundtrack of our lives is r'n'r!!!" - looked directly at me - eye2eye.. and sang "...and TBIYTC!!!" - gosh.. I really want to hope that it was a hint that I will see them again!!!!
So.. yeah.. each song of the show gave me more and more positive vibes... I was lucky to experience that total happiness and freedom, which I usually feel during their shows, and this time the feelings were intensified by so much attention of all the guys...My heart was filled with the endless gratitude to them...
After BCN guys came to the bow, and there were 2 girls standing right behind me, who made a present for the guys - an embroidery of a scorpion - it looked really cool! so I, trying to help them to pass it to the guys, raised it and tried to draw guys' attention - Klaus noticed it and.. gosh, at 1st moments he thought it was mine, so he started to send me air kisses again, but heyy!!! I won't ever take someone's else present for mine - I just wouldn't be able to live with myself after that - so I immediately showed Klaus, that it was from those girls ( gosh, such a confusing situation...) - thanks God the understood it, and thanked the girls as he always does - took the embroidery to his heart, sent a couple of air kisses, showing his gratitude..awww...again my heart was filled with the endless love to him... an incredibly warm and sincere person...
But again, in the end of the show the audience spoiled my state of absolute happiness - coz that sitting parterre was sitting... so, right before WOC Klaus asked them to stand up.. aha.. and only 2-3 ppl stood..but sat down in a few moments...pff...ookay... at orchestra shows I could find some excuse to it.. but at the rock show... what the...???
I was feeling sad here a bit.. and the more I felt sad when before RYLAH Klaus said " if u won't stand u, I won't sing the next song" -oookay he said it joking, but, in each joke... you know....
Thanks God here some ppl stood up and came to the catwalk.. ohh.. I also wanted to be in front frankly speaking, but.. at the same time I thought that my position wasn't bad at all.
I rocked during this song..at the same time realizing that it was the last song of the show...the last riffs...the last minutes...I felt my heart ached of realizing that it was the end...but still the happiness and emotions prevailed, so I still was screaming and waving to the guys. Yep they all were also sending me looks and gestures. hehe, well, I didn't catch any Rudy's\Matthias'\Pawel's plec - but I got much more from these guys - their energy and their attention
So...the last minutes.. the last saying good bye.. Klaus turns around, looks at me, waves me saying "bye-bye" - right the same way as it was in Athens...and here I couldn't hold my tears...the tears of really mixed feelings...on the on hand, that feeling of having a special attention from all the guys, that happiness and even a bit pride of that personal "bye-bye" from Klaus, and on the other hand that bitter feeling of the end of the show, and the understanding that it probably was my last show, coz it was only kinda obscurity ahead...and it was really killing me...so.. I left the venue with this huge contradiction in me... I was extremely happy and extremely sad at the same time...I was crying both of happiness and sadness...
But, I decided to use a chance to see the guys after the show - I decided to take my friends and to go to their hotel...I wasn't sure they were there, I didn't even know if they were still in Tallinn, but not in the airport or on their way to Helsinki...I was even thinking of going to Helsinki for a show.. but of course I understood that coz of some reasons it was impossible for me...Still I wanted to use any chance... And anyways, the guys' hotel was on our way to ours, so anyways we would pass by it, I thought, so why not to stop in the bar and not to drink a glass of beer with friends there.
But when we arrived, the hotel was, so to say, dead - everything except the reception was closed. Well, of course I was surprised that the bars were closed so early ( it was about 23:30 when we arrived) - but it was the fact. So.. we realized that we had nothing to do there, and decided to go "home". Well, and here I didn't feel sad - coz I really had no expectations - but that feeling that it must be the end, that I probably wouldn't see them, wouldn't hear THAT voice, wouldn't see THOSE EYES, THAT SMILE, wouldn't hear THAT PLAYING, wouldn't feel THAT ENERGY, THAT SPIRIT ever again,was really like a worm in my soul...So I tried to tune myself to a positive wave, recalling all the moments of the show, and yep, it helped
. So, feeling much better, me and my friend came to my hotel, and , of course we didn't want to go to bed! no! So we decided make a kinda afterparty in my friend's room, celebrating that glory night! So we sat almost till the morning drinking Vana Tallinn liqueur discussing the show moments, recalling all the emotional for each of us moments, extending that magic of the scorpions show for as long as possible!
And, despite again I slept only for a couple of hours, in the morning I woke up feeling happy! thanks got that bitter pessimistic feeling of the end of my scorps story had gone. Just coz it can't be so! Coz they and their music are the part of my life, and I can't live without them!!
So that flame of a hope that it was not the end, that "TBIYTC" again burned in my heart, and again I started to live with that dream, that TBIYTC!!!!So, once again, I would like to thank the scorpions for giving me another huge positive energy charge! For curing my soul and for filling it with love, happiness and freedom!!! Special thanks to each of the guys for so much attention to me!!! You know how it was important for me, and what it meant to me....So I'm endlessly thankful to all the guys for this!!! From the bottom of my heart!!!! Though the word"thankful" can't really expres what I feel to them...
So.. I really want to hope that it wasn't my last review, and that I will "spam" the forum with more my reviews again and again