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[Sunniva]

It is just too hard to get over this ***... I lost two good friends, and some people I'd met before. I was supposed to go there myself with my boyfriend. But because of a misunderstanding we did not go.

But it has been a while now, and I still think about it. "What would happen if I was there, would my friends be dead, would my boyfriend be dead, would I be dead? Would more people be dead?". I'm thinking about this every day.

I don't know how to get over this. Probably never will. I hate that man ABB... Hope he dies a painful and lonely death...

Sorry about this whiny post, I just had to write something about it, since I haven't done that at all. Sorry about my english too, I'm halfsleeping..

[Invitado]

i`m so sorry to read about it Sunniva. We just share our world with some mad people like him .....I understand you have all these questions unsolved thinking how if , and what if ..... but you know there`s no point on thinking because no one has the answers. It was good you weren`t there at the time..... it must be a quite traumatic experience ....and I`m so sorry about your friends . A big hug to you.

[fos daddy]

Sunny .. everything needs time to heal .. Give it time

[therocker]

All that *** is awful, but you have to consider yourself lucky, the sun is still shining in your life,
people like that can't win the fight they are on the wrong side....

[Adrian]

what happened there it's orrible.....and sometimes life is....strange and cruel .......
...but you must think to be lucky that you missed to be there, and you must live your life even for the friends you lost there

[YNWA]

I`m really sorry for your friends, Sunniva! I`m sure they are at some better place now....

Sadly, sometimes we face certain difficulties, which we have to overcome and to keep walking/living.... And at this moments, we have to estimate what are the valuable things in one`s life...

So if someone has an unshared love or got a poor mark at school, that`s not a big deal. As you`ve already seen, and hopefully, as we all HAVE to see, that there are worse things happening in this world. And our tiny daily problems looks so small compared to them!

May they rest in peace! I wish you to be strong and to overcome it soon (even though such things can never be fully overcomed, they`ve always left a trace in our hearts)

[Gabi6912]

Sunny, you are as so great girl as you were when I got to know you as a 13-year-old, sweet, cool teengirl, who was searching her place in the world.

Dear, I absolutely understand your feelings, but you know, I have been learning lotsof interesting points from wiser people than I have ever been, and believe me, everything that I have learned recently works in my life.

Thus, don't think aboutthose "what would have happened if..." type of questions, because they won'tlose you anywhere.
Don't hurt yourself with this kind of thought, you deserve better thoughts than it is.
You may not know what would have happened, because it didn't happen to you luckyly, because it wasn't a part of your life-plan.

I understand your anger about the guy, but never wish anybody those kinds of things that you wouldn't like to get from others.
Just wish everyone that you would like to be wished.
Believe me,that guy will pay for his act, sooner or later, but he will.

My sinpathy is fior you, and my condolence is for your friends dear.

Luvr yah.

[phuong]

Hope everything is getting better, Sunny.
Tightest hugs to you and everybody suffering

[Sunniva]

Sorry for late answer.
But thanks for the support. Just really needed to yell about everything, because I haven't really been talking about how feel about this to my friends and such, and feels good to just write everything down and let people know.. The court has started, and we get to know horrible details, but I won't let it break me. What has happened, has happened... I can't change it.
I'm working on myself to be a better person now, to get my mood up and feel better.