[Julchinda]

I want to open my heart to people. But every time I did it, they HURT me. Why are people always so wicked with me?? Why me? Thanx guys for your help. Of course, maybe love exists. Of course, I want to feel it. But some time it'll finish. And what then? I'd like an eternal love, but it's impossible. And I have a feeling anybody will never love me. Or is it too banal?.. Just a stupid girl? I think I am.

[nikshark]

don't worry you will find "real love" and remember that "real love" sometimes can go down, but it will never die!!!!!

[Silver]

Yuliya,
b Pojalyista, ne rasstraivaisia, potomy chto y tebia raz nichego ne vyshlo! Ya sovsem tebia ne znau no chyvstvyu chto ty ochen perejyvaesh! Mne kajetsia tebe est' chto predlojit' myjchine i ne stoit rasstraivat'sia. mne kazetsia syshestvyet ideal'nyi myjchina dlia kazdoi jenshiny v etom mire, mojet on daje sovsem blizko, prosto ty etogo poka ne zamechaesh. Rosiyane voobshe gordye, no ne stoit ybivatsia za tem parnem. Byd' silna, i ver' chto lubov' tebia naidet!

[Julchinda]

Silver, it's so great you know Russian!!! Spasibo za teplye slova. No vsyo namnogo slozhnee. Ya prosto ne mogu poverit, kak lubov mozhet suschestvovat. Tot paren sovsem ni pri chyom. Pro nego ya tak, k slovu rasskazala. Prosto ya ne mogu sebe etogo predstavit, eto slishkom nerealno, pohozhe na mechtu, no nikak ne na realnost. A mozhet ya i ne prava. Ya ne znayu. Pozhalujsta, ne nazyvaj russkih Rossiyanami!!!!!!!!! my Russkie=))

[anna]

kak ne mozhesh predstavit'? predstavit' vse mozhno! ti ne verish v to, chto tebya mogut polubit' ili v to, chto mozhesh polubit' sama? pervoe - nizkaya samootsenka, bud' uverena ti dostojna etogo! kazhdaya devushka dostjna bit' lubimoj! a vtoroe srazu projdet, kogda k tebe pridet eto chuvstvo ne rasstraivajsya!

[Silver]

Yuliya,
Lubov' prisydstvyet vezde, i ty poimesh chto eto tak kogda naidesh ee v bydyushem. Ne zdavaisia tak prosto. na svete mnojestvo myjchin, kotorye hotiat byt' s jenshinoi s nejnym serdzem. Byd' optimistkoi i mojet eta lubov' prosto poyavitsia s vyshe i ty pochyvstvyesh chto bylo glypo s tvoei storony dymat' chto ee net. Pover' mne, eto slychit'sia i ty v etom ybedishsia.

[Silver]

Anna,
Tvoi slova kajytsia mne razymnymi, ty pravil'no skazal chto vse ludi zaslyjivaut na to, chto -by ih lubili. I esli iskat' lubov' - nichego ne poluchitsia, ona vsegda sama tebia nahodit. Chyvstvo razocharovaniya bystro prohodit posle togo kak v tvou dver' stuchit lubov' i vse okazyvaetsia sovsem v drygom svete.

[Julchinda]

Thanx guys to all of you!
Ya ne veru, chto YA kogda-nibud budu (ili smogu) lubit kogo-nibud. A po povodu togo, budut li lubit menya, - vse zhe s samoozenkoj u menya ok=)) Tak chto, vyhodit, problema ne vo mne, a v okruzhauschih. Ya prava?

[Silver]

So Yuliya,
Na lubom yazyke ya mogy skazat' tebe chto ty ne prava. Ya pytalsia pomoch tebe, chto b ty poverila v sebia. Navernoe ya bol'she nichego ne mogy dopolnit' k tomy chto ya yje skazal, krome togo chto tebe vse je stait prekratit' sebia jalet'! Vse nashy sovety shli na to, chto by dobavit' v tebe optimizma, no teper' ty doljna obresti ego sama.
ya rad chto yvidel nakonez - to ludei' kotorye pishyt na rysskom. Zelau tebe mnogo schast'ya v etom mire!

Ps. Voobshe-to bol'shoi raznizy v slovah Russkie i Rossiayane ya ne vijy, no esli ty yje tak hochesh, to horosho, ne bydy.

[anna]

Originally posted by Julchinda
Thanx guys to all of you!
Ya ne veru, chto YA kogda-nibud budu (ili smogu) lubit kogo-nibud. A po povodu togo, budut li lubit menya, - vse zhe s samoozenkoj u menya ok=)) Tak chto, vyhodit, problema ne vo mne, a v okruzhauschih. Ya prava?

uvi, net, Yuliya. nashi chuvstva - eto tol'ko nashi problemi. esli ti schitaesh chto ne mozhesh polubit', to drugie ludi v etom ne vinovati (i eto, kstati, kasaetsya lubih emozij, naprimer, bespolezno obvinyat' kogo-to v tom chto "on menya obidel" - ne nas obizhayut, eto MI SAMI mozhem obidet'sya, a mozhem i ne obidet'sya). ti obyazatel'no polubish, esli pozvolish sebe polubit'. mozhet, ti slishkom svisoka otnosishsya k ludyam, schitaesh, chto oni ne dostojni tvoej lubvi? ili ti schitaesh sebya ne sposobnoj polubit'? chto blizhe?
k tomu zhe na tebya slishkom negativno povliyala ta pervaya popitka... konechno, pervij opit vsegda ostavlyaet glubokie vpechatleniya, no ne do takoj stepeni, chtobi pozvolit' im perecherknut' vsyu sleduyuschuyu zhizn'! pojmi, eto bil tol'ko pervij raz - "pervij blin komom" i ne zaostryaj na nem vnimanie! potomu chto vo-pervih, ne vse parni takie, kak tot, a vo-vtorih, dlya lubvi vovse ne obyazatel'no otkrivat'sya cheloveku... luchshe proyavlyat' svoyu zagadochnuyu naturu
i escho... kak eto ne pechal'no - "ni chto ne vechno pod lunoj", i lubov' redko bivaet "do groba"... vryad li ot kazhdogo znakomstva sleduet zhdat' vechnoj lubvi...
nadeyus', ne slishkom tebya ogorchila.. i mozhet v etom nabore slov ti nashla chto-to poleznoe schstlivo!

[uli]

as the scorps saying:"baby our love will find a way as long as we believe in love''

[Julchinda]

But don't you permit I believe in love in the bottom of my heart? Maybe I don't understand my heart? I think I don't. And you think I'm a pessimist.
It's so difficult to find a perfect guy in this world. I'm a perfectionist, everything must be perfect. I know I'll find him, I have no doubt. I always get what I want. But it's so hard... ALL the people around me are always so GLOOMY, ANGRY, MELANCHOLY...I always try to "light" them with my good mood, but I'm alone and they are everywhere, they just put my "shine" off...=(( That's why I have pessimistic thoughts so often.
I don't want to justify myself. But you just understood me wrong. I'm an optimist. But I'm not like Dostoevsky who thought environment didn't influence on a person. I think a person can't live alone, there must be people who support him. I haven't such people - there're friends, but not people you're studying, talking with, but REAL CLOSE friends, well you know what I'm talking about. So, to cut a long story short, I'm a lonely optimist, I think.

[pepe]

Hi Julchinda...the love no have frontiers,n u know ? u not r a s. girl, the thing is U give everthing about U but that its the love n
when u found the real love u feel fire inside
n burnig the sky......

[anna]

Originally posted by Julchinda
But I'm not like Dostoevsky who thought environment didn't influence on a person. I think a person can't live alone, there must be people who support him. NOT necessarily... Dostoevsky is still right...